Just before the cock crows,
the dark is at its darkest.
You cannot see the ground beneath your feet.
Your right hand cannot see what your left hand is doing.
Your parts are not connected,
and anything might happen.
This is where missteps are made,
where paths are veered from and never found again.
Fear is in control,
and there is no light.
The easiest thing to do here is sleep.
Sleep through the difficulty,
sleep through the time of trial.
When you wake, if you wake,
you will be somewhere completely different.
There might be some light, or it might be murky.
God will not leave you and you will still grow from there.
But, if you can, keep awake.
Keep awake.
Keep awake and pray.
If you stay awake
through that strange, turbulent hour
of disconnection and fear,
the cock will finally crow,
and you will finally see.
You will come to yourself.
You may not like where you are,
you may not like what you have done,
you may be filled with deep, deep regret and sorrow . . .
but look,
to the east —
the sun is rising,
light is being restored,
and you, at last, are present.
Keep awake,
through the playing out of that which has already begun,
that which you cannot change.
Keep awake,
see, receive, remember.
Keep awake.
Pray.
You are about to witness
resurrection.
Lindy Thompson 